February 8, 2014
Bucal 4 - A
Maragondon, Cavite
Dear Jacob,
Where
should I begin? That question popped up on my mind when I heard that we need to
write an apology letter. Perhaps the letter isn't the best way to go about
this. I know that I don't deserve anything from you, but I can only hope that
you'll read these words, knowing that I mean every one of them. For me, a good
apology has three parts. The first part is saying I’m sorry. So I suppose,
saying “I’m sorry” is a start. As I look back in our past conversations, I am
now in guilt. I am very sorry for what I did to you. I am very sorry if I am so
sensitive at times that can lead us into a fight. Now, I realize (and should
have realized then) how much pain that I caused you. If I could change the past
and take back what I did, I would. I promise that I would never hurt you like
this anymore. I was supposed to be the one who would protect you from this sort
of pain; I never intended to be the cause.
The second part of a good apology is
admitting that it was my entire fault. Yes, it was my fault. I didn’t think
that I would hurt your feelings because I am so selfish that time. I only think
for my own sake. It was a “rebound”. You’re the one that I used to forget my
feelings about him because I know that you will never fall in love with me
because I know that you are deeply in love with my best friend. But then, I was
wrong. And I am very sorry for that. That time, I can’t imagine someone having
a crush on me. I am so focused that time with him, not even bothered what are
you going to feel. And now that I see how much my actions have hurt you, I know
that I can’t bear to see you unhappy. I can promise you that I won’t ever
recklessly use a person just for me to forget things. It was wrong, stupid, and
immature of me to do what I did.
The last part of a good apology is
knowing how can I make it right. Based on my experience, I know that forgiving
someone is easy but forgetting of the mistake done by that someone is
definitely hard. But, I hope you can forgive me for what I did and put this
matter behind us. I treasure our friendship and all the things we've done and
been through. And hopefully, what transpired can become one of those incidents
that make our bond stronger than ever. I hate that there's a chance that
you will never want to be a part of my life again, so I hope you know that I
will do whatever it takes to prove to you that I can do better if you just give
me a second chance. I can’t promise to fix all of your problems, but I can
promise you won’t have to face them alone. I know that one day; someone is
going to hug you so tight. That all of your broken pieces will stick back
together.
If one day you want to
run away, don’t be afraid to call me. I don’t promise to ask you to stop, but I
can run away with you. If one day you don’t want to listen to anyone, call me.
I promise to be there for you and I promise to be very quiet. If one day you
feel like crying and you saw me happy, don’t have a second thought to call me
because I am ready to leave all of the happiness in this world just for you.
But if one day you call, and there is no answer. Come fast to see me. Perhaps I
need you. (Perhaps I’m not around anymore).
Love lots,
Jochelle
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